I know how LeBron ... and D-Wade and Bosh ... Feels

Cutter's Log - Stardate 0102.30.70
Current Song - Promises, Promises (Naked Eyes)

I feel like my career is somewhat paralleling LeBron's.

I "filed for free agency" this past spring from NISB. I'm contemplating several opportunities. A part-time job recently opened in LP. There's a big NIU and preps (80/20) opportunity at DeKalb. The second Peoria paper may still have an opening. There's another in Munster, Indiana. There's desk stuff in Mattoon. Creston, IA is a ways away. Then there's always NISB.

I have been bugged by A LOT of people regarding what I do next. Relatives, customers at the gas station, friends, instructors, etc. I stated during graduation that I would take a year off to try to "get on my own two feet." Apparently no one knows what that means --- It means find a place to live on my own. I just CANNOT understand why people think it is so easy to get out and just find a place willy-nilly.

The fact is, right now I am in no shape to get a place of my own. I do not know how to find a place of my own. I do not know how to successfully be on my own. I do not know how to earn enough money, without dying of excessive body pain, to sucessfully pay the money (bills, groceries) needed to be on my own.


After pausing for about 45 minutes after writing the next paragraph, I have come to the conclusion that my biggest lack (communication) is preventing me from doing what I want to do.

I do not want to live like a lonely reculse my entire life.