V-Day Post

Cutter's Log - Stardate 0102.41.20
Current Song - Just The Way You Are (Billy Joel)

I never really posted anything special on Valentine's Day. It's just something that I outgrew during high school. Not that I outgrew it, but its significance meant less and less to me since I never could quite take advantage of the day.

The last think I did for Valentines Day was give the whole girls basketball team roses, back when I was a manager for them.

Every Valentines day I take a moment and remember all things "love" in my life. There's family, as always, but it doesn't have much empahasis as the girls I've met. I think about my family every day. I haven't really had strong feelings for a girl since my senior year of high school.

All I could do was look back and cherish what was what back then. Out of all of these, there is still someone who resonates in my heart. Everyone else left, except her. I still see her once in a while, and every time I do it's as if everything back then is coming back to me.

I still love her.

Why exactly do I love her? I wasn't really able to answer that question when I was in school, but I can kind of answer it now. She's really the only one of them who has some sort of understanding for who I am. She'll still talk to me, and is still glad to see me.

Now if I could just do something about it - to try to put the right words together.