I've Got To Save Myself

Cutter's Log - Stardate 2012.52.50
Current Song - Little Lies (Fleetwood Mac)

The biggest challenge I have in my life will be coming up on June 10.

That is the day that I either grow up, or continue to be pushed around at the age of 26. If I am successful at what I try to do, a big barrier will be knocked over and I can start taking command of my life. Not only will I take command of my life, but I will also put myself in the position to actually catch up to the other 26-year-olds that I know.

I have a future and I want to persue it.

The challenge that I have to overcome on June 10 is that of someone not wanting me to take control of my own destiny - the way I want to do it (trying to throw everything but the kitchen sink at me, and perhaps in front of him). He'll gather up an army, but I will take on that myself. Just don't hope I lose territory over this.

I cannot continue to be stuck in this cycle that I am in now.

I know what's best for me. I know what's best for the things that I do.

June 10 is either "grow up" or continue to be "chained up."

I have no choice to do what I have to do, and that is to grow up and take command.

I will succeed.